-that is the question-
if you were my ipod....
would you want a pink or black case?

p.s yes i'm alive. was just working heaps lots.
but i'm back now. um. oh and i finished my uni degree.
that is all.

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- obligatory side angled emo shot (with bonus sepia shading) -


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it's so hot....







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.we're dancing on a thin line.
i drank WAY too much red bull today. why? (because i'm fucking retarded).
i've had about 40bajillion anxiety attacks for no reason other that i over-think TOO much.
and then flip out over nothing. someone please shoot me in the head.
i think i may have fucked myself. and not in the good sense.
tourism exam tomorrow. professional wine studies the day after.
my heart is racing 7,892kph and it won't slow down.
i just need to be reassured that everything is going to be ok.
but even then, when i am...it doesn't help. stupid, stupid me.
maybe i should go do some study. but i can't, because i'm not able to focus.
but yes. i've definitely messed up. i can feel it in me bones. i always do this.

fuck.

"i want to go but i have to stay. i know you'd be there anyway.
i need you and you need me. so much for bliss when i kiss this enemy.
i wish i didn’t need you now, and i wish you didn’t need me.
i need you now, i need you now, i need you now"

haha. oh my, it's come to the point of posting lyrics in my journal.
someone call the emoambulance.

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"she made pee-pee mache with your friend"

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-synthetic ecstasy when her legs are open-
i'm feeling kinda nauseous right now. not too sure why though.
oh wait i know why. because when i fed the cat, some cat food juice dribbled onto my hand, and and dude, it was gross.
i washed it off and all, but i can STILL FEEL IT! blegh.
all sardiney and fishy and eww.

did i mention i don't like fish? yeah well whatever.

on top of that i can sense a sore throat which inevitably means i'll get a cold or the flu or something.
but this is not allowed to happen because i have 2 exams next week. and they're my last 2 exams for EVER.
after that, my degree is done. i'll have a bachelor of business in music industry...if i can hold on for just 1 more week.
oh and maybe study.

on the good news front...um...oh i finished extracting all my cds (well most of the tracks) onto my pc.
so i can put them back into order now. maybe that means i can sleep or something. because i have 515+ cds,
and they're very hard to sort through unless they're in some sort of order. hence the alphabet.
i was thinking of going all "high fidelity" and putting them in chronological order in the sense of when they were purchased,
or maybe chronological order of when the CD was released. but that's too much effort and i'm too freaking lazy.

i hope all you geeks out there are enjoying halo2. anyone want to donate an xbox and halo2 to me?

that is all.

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one of the many reasons why i <3 penny arcade...


need i say more?
i salute you hot comic guys.

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my business

......is done.


and i had SO much to do.
SO MUCH!




that is all.

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-yeah i'm still doing my assignments...2 to go...just having a small break-
slim jim....it's meat-a-riffic.

"slim jim is the high-impact snack that snaps you to the next level.
whether you're stepping up to the vert ramp or just gawking at
dave mirra from the comfort of your couch, that solid shot of spicy
beef has your back."

i don't think i've laughed so much in a long time.

from now on.. everything is "meat-a-riffic"

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jordan's fine.
well relatively fine.
fractured left collar bone, small chip in the back of his skull and an infection in his ear.
he's freaking lucky his neck is ok. maybe if he'd been wearing his armour, he wouldn't be broken as bad.
he came home from hospital on tuesday, so glad i don't have to go back to frankston all the time.

i'm so fucking tired though. today i woke up at 10am to take jordan to the doctors for his ear.
then came home, made some awesome salad rolls for the both of us with soy milk banana shakes.
but after that i just totally bombed. i fell asleep at like 1.30pm and woke up at 7.30pm.
had dinner, now it's 10.47pm and i'm about to sleep again. i have no energy whatsoever.
my head is all over the place, and i still need to finish my assignments that are due next week.

i don't know what's going on with me, but i'm just so lethargic.

gah. ok sleep for me.

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-so yay-
hasn't tonight just been fucking fantastic?
(and of course i say that dripping with sarcasm etc.)

i got home from work around 5.20pm. got a call at 6pm from jordan's mobile.
cept it's not jordan. twas brendan. jordan's friends' troy's dad (i just slaughtered the " ' " but whatever)
apparently jordan had stacked his dirt bike down at the frankston motorcross track and hurt himself pretty badly.
he was in the frankston hospital, and maybe it would be good if i came down, NOW.

did i mention my parents left for darwin (for a week's holiday) last night??
not that this is something i couldn't handle, but i thought that jordan was dead or something!
dammit jordan, could you have picked a WORSER week? honestly.

so anyways i grabbed callan, sped down to the frankston freaking hospital.
we were met there by troy and his family who tell us that jordan's in the middle of a cat scan on his head.
yay.
they go home (and take jordan's car and bike with them back to ferntree gully)
and callan and i go to the emergency ward to find jordan in a bed;
oxygen mask on, drip in his arm, neck brace and dirt all over his face.
he was a bit out of it, i think they'd given him a bit of morphine for the pain, he couldn't talk much nor move his neck.
it was about 9.30pm when the surgical dude told us that he'd broken his collarbone, fractured some vertabrae in his neck,
oh and he has a small skull fracture. fantastic.
you should have seen his helmet, fucking scary. there's a huge crack down the side of it where he hit ?something?.
the ground?, a rock?, his bike?, the handles?
he can't remember anything about the crash, just that he was riding, and then the next he was down.
as far as i can gather, no one saw him crash because the part of the track was behind trees. bah.
so yes. he's in there for observation for the night, hopefully he goes ok.
i'm fucking worried, but so angry at the same time. so stupid of him to do this!

i have to call in sick for him at work tomorrow, call work to tell them that i can't work either,
also make sure callan gets to work ok, then call the hospital to see what's happening.
jord's is getting a spinal cat scan done tomorrow to make sure his neck is ok and then he's all clear to go home.
if not, then he'll be moved to knox private and i'll have to call the parentals and tell them the news.
then after the hospital, i have to call my uncle and jordan's gf to tell them what's the deal.
if everything is ok, then i'll go back down to freaking frankston and pick him up.

well there goes my plan for relaxing during my mid-semester break from uni. i was planning to do some home work too.
bah. it's 12.52am on monday morning now. we got home from the hospital at around 12.20am
talk about a long night. he's just lucky he didn't do anything worse to himself, otherwise i would have killed him myself.

i'm gonna go get some sleep now because i'm fucking tired.
just thought i'd do an update while i have time. that is all.
<3 amber

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-sleepy and then some-
just a quick hello.
hello.




ok. um yes. next week i have off uni. yay. i'm contemplating going to the beach house.
but the parentals are going to western australia for the week,
so my poor defenceless younger brothers won't be able to fend for themselves.
(read: cook and clean).
so here i have to decide whether i want to stay at home and look after them and attempt to relax.
or go to the beach, receive phone calls asking how to cook stuff and come back to a burnt down house.
either way it's still sucky.

plus i have to drive and pick up the units from the airport. dandy.

um. oh and i got some new piercings. a freddo frog to the first person who guesses correctly.
and to the people who already know, you'll get a freddo frog anyways, so don't ruin it!

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-things i have discovered tonight-
- that sims 2 is taking WAAAAY too fucking long to install. *curse you disc 3*

- i have never, in my life, won a game of minesweeper...and i only tonight figured out how to play it.
(i thought that those numbers on the blocks was how many points i got for choosing the right blocks)

edit: i DID win a game of minesweeper, but i cheated and set the field 20x20 mwhahaha.
the lil dude has sunglasses on. yup i'm way cool.

- 11.35pm is way past my bed time.

- my brother callan is heaps lots impatient when it comes to waiting for a game to install.

- that solitaire on this pc is against me.

- my fingers are cold.

- that the 1st cd drive is REALLY slow, and i should have installed this game via the 2nd drive. foolish me.

that is all.
<3

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.foe-toe time.
honestly, how much do i adore jenna?!??! thank you SO much my dear.
i walked into my room sunday night after work and found that HUGE vinyl hellboy poster on my bed!!
muchos loveos!

HUGE!


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-eugh-
jordan just cooked an omlette and now the house smells of cooked egg.
tis quite stomach turning.
rhi and i went speed shopping today.
she bought some spanky french kitty capri pants and a black-sequined halter neck top from bardot.
she's getting all dolled-up for steve's 22nd birthday on saturday.
i got a new red wallet yesterday when i went shopping with kat.
saw muse last night with kat and erin. was lots of fun.
minus the fucktards who were smoking all around me. honestly, is it TOO much to ask to go to a gig and not inhale smoke?
that egg smell is making me feel ill.
i think i'm going to visit chris tonight. i don't have uni tonight, which is weird. i haven't had a proper day off like this for a whlie.
i'm too freaking picky, and my mind constantly changes when it comes to boys. i hate it.
how the hell have i managed to get all these tattoos and not change my mind? go figure.
what's with getting 15 spam emails within 5 minutes?!
um. ok i'm done. i think i'm going to go be sick now. this egg smell is really getting to me.

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-gotta have more cowbell-

I've Got A Fever & The Only Prescription Is More Cowbell...need i say more?

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this totally made my night. erin made me post it. so you can thank her.


.here's the rest of them if you're interested.

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-drove a tank in on the left-
so like um. guess who has a promo edition of head automatica's "decadence" album?
that's right baby, me.
holy shit it's good. it makes me want to jump around and stuff. daryl palumbo, you are amazing.
um. i don't think it's being released in australia, so you'll all have to order it from amazon.com or whatever.
many thanks to my dear friend deb for hooking me up. muchos love baby!
(many thanks to linsey who was going to send me it if i couldn't find it here <3)
deb and i met up at gloria jeans at knox over a soy iced latte and reminisced about old times..at uni.
(so they're not really THAT old, but still. oh just shush up will you, it's MY damn journal.)

anyways, um what else? i've been merching with kat this week because she needs someone to carry the new bins.
it's lots of fun, well minus the early morning starts, but i'm just preparing myself for xmas and more merching. YAY.

erin and i saw 'the village' at highpoint tonight after i had my wine (blegh) tasting class.
twas interesting. i really liked the music. a lot. something about string instruments that does it for me.

hmmm what else?
muse next week. then in flames/chimaira the week after. um and that's about it for the moment.
more bands need to play more shows. i have nothing to do on the weekends aside from work. it's quite sad really.

there's no one online to talk to, which is incredibly the suck. so i'm just going to go get some sleep.
going to philip island on saturday. i have to do a tour of some wineries for our major assignment/presentation.
eugh. not really looking forward to it.

that is all. oh and i need a massage...
now that's all.
<3

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-blah ditty blah-
quick update on things:

last friday night i got home after work and seeing hellboy for the 2nd time.
got a phone call around 12.30 letting us know that the taxi we had called was out the front?
what taxi? looked out my window to see 3 taxis in our driveway. what the fuck?
woke up my brother to ask if he'd ordered any taxis...negatory.
he went downstairs and told them that we didn't order any, just as he came back upstairs,
another taxi came. who the fuck was calling taxis to our house?
then at around 1.30am we get a phone call from 'auto barn' letting us know that our car is ready to be picked up.
what? supposedly they have a new service that goes on during the middle of the night.
right. not that we had a car at autobarn. and do autobarn even service cars?
they asked for rodger (my dad), so i asked who this was, they said it was rodger.
eh?! i handed the phone to dad and by that time they'd hung up. i was so not impressed.
taxis and prank phone calls at night when i need sleep does not make a happy amber.
supposedly the wednesday before that someone had sent 3 cheese pizzas to our house too.
oh and our house was egged that night too. i think i know who it is. and if i ever see that little fuck-knuckle,
i shall castrate him with his own teeth.

but on to more happier topics. i got more ink done. mmm. so pretty. i'm in love with them.
they're being itchy little fuckers at the moment, but that's all part of the package.
then steve and i have to plan on a wash background to tie all the pieces together.
i also got a small tattoo on the underside of my left wrist. rhi got two. now i have to get another to match.
kat wants to get them too. now we have to convince erin. wsc. heh. i amuse myself.

saw hellboy (3rd time) at the jam factory on saturday night after adams's 20th birthday dinner at the hardrock cafe.
saturday & sunday i worked, and found out i got a bonus because head office messed up. score.
i got commission and didn't have to sell anything.
monday i worked. tuesday i got tattooed, and then did a presentation for human relations. we rocked.
thanks for everyone's suggestions on which songs to play. nerdy went down a treat. great minds jayne!

wednesday rhi got tattooed, then we met up with kat at gloria jeans and munched on soy iced lattes and muffins.
so much fun, i missed talking with you my dear! not long till we start merching! volvocore r.i.p.
then i went to uni. boring. after uni tristian and i went and saw hellboy (4th time)...i can't get enough of that movie.
is that wrong?

now i have to study some wineries in the philip island area, for my class tonight. bah i don't even drink wine.
i should have made rhi take the class in my place instead. she would have loved it.
not long to go now. everything is slowly falling into place.

much love to you all.
did i mention i like tattoos?
that is all
<3.

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